cutebunny43 | Entries tagged with i hate myself

So remember my last post where I said I had WAY too many plotbunnies for

het_bigbang and there was gonna be a poll put up? Well, here is that poll! GO VOTE PLZ! Right now, Camelot is winning, but Nikita is trying to catch up, with PRJF struggling, I NEED YOUR HALP GAIZ!

Current Mood: geeky
Current Music: Hysteria - Muse
Crossposts: http://cutebunny43.livejournal.com/101015.html

Gaiz, what is WRONG with me? I have MORE than enough fics to write, but I've had this idea in my head for literally YEARS, and it STILL won't leave me alone. I want to write a Power Rangers Lightspeed Rescue/Supernatural fusion fic, wherein the Mitchells hunt demons with help from the rest of the crew. I mean, TECHNICALLY, they were hunting demons before Supernatural was around, so. Of course it'd be Ryan/Dana because, duh, 'cept Ryan would be more like Sam, in that he just wants to be normal, and Dana would be Dean, in that she's sacrificed her life to destroying evil.

...does this sound interesting to anybody, or am I just crazy and should ignore the muse again like I've been doing for years? HELP YOU GAIZ I CAN'T EVEN WHAT IS WRONG WITH MEEE!

Current Mood: cranky
Current Music: In the House, In a Heartbeat - John Murphy

So, my het BB is officially finished! ...technically, at any rate! I'm not pleased with it at all, I mean, there are good points, but overall, it's pretty rushed, there are plotholes up the ass, I leave things ambiguous, and just...bleh, most of it was my own fault, I can admit. But if anybody wants to read it, the website with my fic, and all the others are here! And pleasepleasepleasePLEASE check out the art that was done for my fic, it will BLOW YOUR FREAKIN MIND I SWEAR! ♥!

And SO MUCH MANY THANKS AND LOVE AND RAINBOWS AND HEARTS AND CUPCAKES TO

dragovianknight for being my beta AGAIN, and for dealing with my whining and shitty last minute deadlines and just her general epicness, I really do not know what I'd do without her epic skillz of a beta! As always, it almost goes without saying at this point, much thanks and love to the OMC for...well, being the OMC and my besties for liiiife! And of course, thanks to everyone else for supporting me and not letting me quit, and telling me that I could do this, you guys really are the bestest! ♥

And there WILL be a revised and extended edition of my Xena fic, I PROMISE you that! Don't know when, but it WILL happen!

Current Mood: thankful
Current Music: Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri

Because I'm stupid that's why, and I'm a little sleep deprived and I'm on my period so blah and thank GOD the mod for my BB has given everybody a 12 hour extension, because I NEED EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THOSE HOURS! Luckily, my ending is almost finished, so there is that, at the very least. I am definitely going to have cut out/shorten things, which annoys me, but whatevs, it'll just be like a DVD or something, you get to see deleted scenes at a later point in time!

CHEER ME ON YOU GUYS I TOTALLY NEED IT! ♥ you all!

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Hallelujah - Jeff Buckley

I'm not even at 20k words yet for NaNo, and I have FIVE DAYS LEFT WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME AND I HAVE NOT HAD ANY SLEEP I CAN BARELY KEEP MY EYES OPEN IT'S RAINING AND I'M ON MY PERIOD TO BOOT! AAAAAAAAAAAAARGH! SOMEBODY HELP ME AND TELL ME I CAN STILL DO THIIIS PLEEEASE!

~~I also friended some of you on NaNo, so if you see that some random person named Otherworld has friended you, that would be yours truly, hope you don't mind! ♥~~

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Jai Ho! (You Are my Destiny) - The Pussycat Dolls

But first thing's first! Happy birthday

starandrea ! I can't put into words how much I adore you, and the fact you have absolutely NO problem having entire conversations with me in capslock! I can't wait to be able to glomp you in person, until then, this will have to do! *GLOMPS!* ♥

And now for the freak-out part. MY PS3 HAS PROBABLY KICKED THE BUCKET! I was replaying Dragon Age: Origins Awakening again today, and when I was switching out one party member for another, it randomly froze, it wouldn't go back to normal, and I couldn't press the PS button to quit it, so I just ejected it, and it wouldn't even do that at first, but it DID as SOON as the game started working again, and after that, lo-and-behold, it stopped reading EVERYTHING. It doesn't read PS3 discs, PS2 discs, or movies. I've tried everything I can think of, and I'm ready to cry! I've had this thing since the year they released the PS3, so it's the fat version, the size of a small computer, and I've never had a single fucking problem with it until now!

Fucking figures, bleh. If anybody has annnnyyyy ideas short of just having to get an entirely new shitty PS3 that can't play PS2 games, give me some hints, onegai? ♥ you all!

~~Sidenote: Outside of my beloved RooRoo, I haven't gotten a single comment about my epic bigbang fic! FIX THIS NAO! (It will make me feel better! *bats eyelashes!*)~~

Current Mood: stressed

I'm so stuuupid! Still frantically working on my epic RPM fic for au_bigbang, but I stupidly stopped working on it for like, two weeks after I sent in my rough draft, because I just didn't want to look at it anymore. Now I'm struggling to fill in all my plot lines before the 4th! AGGGGH! This wouldn't be so bad, but I have to allocate time for my lovely betas to read it over and make sure I don't look like a complete idiot, and aaaargh. What do I even doooo, agggh! *runs around in circles*

Also, I totally missed the anniversary of my el jay, AGAIN! It was on like, the 8th or something. I can't believe I've had that thing for SEVEN years now, holy shitcakes, man! I like to think I've grown a lot since then, considering I was like...14, jesus. I was a mere babe at that point! Oh, how time has passed! Love ya, my el jay! ♥

P.S. I love you

starandrea and

dragovianknight ♥